05 The Figurehead 



sharp and open 

leave me alone 

and sleeping less every night 

as the days become heavier and weighted 

waiting 

in the cold light 

a noise 

a scream tears my clothes as the figurines tighten 

with spiders inside them 

and dust on the lips of a vision of hell 

i laughed in the mirror for the first time in a year 



a hundred other words blind me with your purity 

like an old painted doll in the throes of dance 

i think about tomorrow 

please let me sleep 

as i slip down the window 

freshly squashed fly 

you mean nothing 

you mean nothing 



i can lose myself in chinese art and american girls 

all the time 

lose me in the dark 

please do it right 

run into the night 

i will lose myself tomorrow 

crimson pain 

my heart explodes 

my memory in a fire 

and someone will listen 

at least for a short while... 



i can never say no to anyone but you 



too many secrets 

too many lies 

writhing with hatred 

too many secrets 

please make it good tonight... 

but the same image haunts me 

in sequence 

in despair of time 



i will never be clean again 

i touched her eyes 

pressed my stained face 

i will never be clean again 



touch her eyes 

press my stained face 

i will never be clean again 



i will never be clean again 





05 傀儡 



骗子来了 

不要理睬我 

每晚只有短暂的睡眠 

当日子越来越沉重 

等待 

在寒冷的光里 

喧嚣着 

像傀儡般紧张地尖叫着撕裂我的衣服 

和他们体内的蜘蛛在一起 

然后拂去在地狱里看到的唇上的尘土 

这年我第一次在在镜子里笑了 



无数个不同的诺言和你的纯洁使我失明 

像个着色的旧玩偶在这抽搐着跳舞 

我想象着明天 

请让我睡去吧 

像我在窗户下滑倒 

那只刚被挤烂的苍蝇 

你们什么意义都没有 

你们没有意义 





我沉醉于美国妞和中国的艺术 

始终如此 

迷失在黑暗中 

请做好它 

奔跑着进入夜晚 

我明天将失去我自己 

腥红色的痛苦 

我的心脏爆炸 

我的记忆燃烧着 

有人将听到它们 

至少在瞬间…… 



除了你我永远不向任何人说不 



太多的秘密 

太多谎言 

与仇恨一起扭曲 

太多的隐秘 

今晚请使它完美…… 

但是同样的幻象缠绕住我 

如此有序 

在这绝望的时间里 



我不再纯洁 

我被她的眼神俘虏 

紧抱着我污秽的脸 

我已不再干净 



抚摸她的眼睛 

拥抱着我污秽的脸 

我不再纯洁了 



我永远永远的不再干净了