05 The Figurehead

sharp and open
leave me alone
and sleeping less every night
as the days become heavier and weighted
waiting
in the cold light
a noise
a scream tears my clothes as the figurines tighten
with spiders inside them
and dust on the lips of a vision of hell
i laughed in the mirror for the first time in a year

a hundred other words blind me with your purity
like an old painted doll in the throes of dance
i think about tomorrow
please let me sleep
as i slip down the window
freshly squashed fly
you mean nothing
you mean nothing

i can lose myself in chinese art and american girls
all the time
lose me in the dark
please do it right
run into the night
i will lose myself tomorrow
crimson pain
my heart explodes
my memory in a fire
and someone will listen
at least for a short while...

i can never say no to anyone but you

too many secrets
too many lies
writhing with hatred
too many secrets
please make it good tonight...
but the same image haunts me
in sequence
in despair of time

i will never be clean again
i touched her eyes
pressed my stained face
i will never be clean again

touch her eyes
press my stained face
i will never be clean again

i will never be clean again


05 傀儡

骗子来了
不要理睬我
每晚只有短暂的睡眠
当日子越来越沉重
等待
在寒冷的光里
喧嚣着
像傀儡般紧张地尖叫着撕裂我的衣服
和他们体内的蜘蛛在一起
然后拂去在地狱里看到的唇上的尘土
这年我第一次在在镜子里笑了

无数个不同的诺言和你的纯洁使我失明
像个着色的旧玩偶在这抽搐着跳舞
我想象着明天
请让我睡去吧
像我在窗户下滑倒
那只刚被挤烂的苍蝇
你们什么意义都没有
你们没有意义


我沉醉于美国妞和中国的艺术
始终如此
迷失在黑暗中
请做好它
奔跑着进入夜晚
我明天将失去我自己
腥红色的痛苦
我的心脏爆炸
我的记忆燃烧着
有人将听到它们
至少在瞬间……

除了你我永远不向任何人说不

太多的秘密
太多谎言
与仇恨一起扭曲
太多的隐秘
今晚请使它完美……
但是同样的幻象缠绕住我
如此有序
在这绝望的时间里

我不再纯洁
我被她的眼神俘虏
紧抱着我污秽的脸
我已不再干净

抚摸她的眼睛
拥抱着我污秽的脸
我不再纯洁了

我永远永远的不再干净了