Butterly or a golden bee.

My smile's like razorblades:

When I smile

It cuts bloody deep.

My body's on the magazine,

My face on the TV,

My voice on the radio.

That's me in my dream.

When I open my eyes

I see I'm a piece of shit!



A worthless coward!

A vapid whore!

A moral-less refugee

Covered in sores!

A blithering sea cow

Lost in its dreams!

Nobody likes me, yeah!

Nobody likes me at all!

Nobody likes me, yeah!



Wet, blue world fills me up-

I find I'm deep inside.

Waves crash and I breathe water,

But I haven't died!



And beneath the waves,

I hide my head in darker water

And nobody sees.

I cut myself-

Hope to draw you in,

But even the sharks pass by;

Someone please explain.

All alone I'm growing colder.

Laughter like cancer over my shoulder.

Mirrors like hatchets to the world of my face.



I'm not a manatee!

I'm not a manatee!

Just leave me alone!

Just leave me alone!



And beneath the sea,

I give up and I descend

And I'm finally free!



And in the end...

Wet, blue world fills me up-

Fills me deep inside.

Waves crash and I breathe water,

But I haven't died!



Never!

With a furious poison in my heart,

Will I return from the darker waters?

I let the tide tear me apart!

Never!

With a furious poison in my veins,

Will I return from the darker waters?

I'll hold my breath and wait for change!



I die-

It's a suicide.

My body swallowed by a big blue violence

And into the endless tide.





Cold

And all alone,

I held my own

But now I give up!