If ever you had said to me before that I would live this life 

That I am living now I guess it's all so strange 

To feel the way I do inside 

But have so much that I could feel some pride for in my life 

So why is it that I feel like this 

Refrain: 

How do I feel? I've been here before, I've felt this 

Retreat to a place, a place within me, I need this 

Keep it all down, bottled inside, it breaks me 

To torment again and torture me like it used to 

I try and try to break away from all the hate I'm feeling 

For every one of you that's ever done me wrong 

I need to justify the reasons for the way I'm living 

I guess I can't cause I don't feel like I deserve 

Refrain 

So now the waves they have subsided and my soul is bleeding 

I can't take away all the shame I feel forgive me