as  i  feel  the  inferno

  i  stare  in  the  dark

  thinking  what  is  eternal

  the  man  or  the  moment

  the  act  or  the  reason

  these  thoughts  fill  my  head

  as  i  contemplate  treason

  of  dreams  i  have  had

  and  dreams  i  have  pondered

  when  late  in  the  night

  my  mind  it  would  wander

  to  things  i  have  done

  and  then  quickly  regretted

  while  denying  vices

  my  life  had  selected

  and  i  think  what  i've  done

  or  have  yet  to  begin

  and  the  man  i've  become

  and  the  man  that  i've  been

  now  caught  in  a  waltz

  with  the  eternal  dancer

  i'm  courted  by  death

  but  death  isn't  the  answer

  i  say

  all  i  was

  meant  to  be

  could  i

  suddenly

  just  decide

  not  a  thought

  would  survive

  could  it  be

  my  life's  worth

  ended  there

  with  my  birth

  if  i  could  see  someone

  who's  been  there  before  me

  and  traded  his  soul

  for  a  moment  of  glory

  his  penance  or  mercy

  by  spirits  debated

  while  judged  on  a  scale

  that's  been  heavily  weighted

  and  what  have  i  done

  could  there  be  such  a  sin

  in  this  man  i've  become

  in  this  man  that  i've  been

  now  calling  to  god

  from  the  pit's  very  bottom

  i  pray  he  forgives

  every  sin  i've  forgotten

  this  day

  and  who  would  have  thought

  that  my  fate  it  would  conjure

  this  twist  in  the  road

  on  which  i  have  wandered

  each  vision  and  dream  now

  completely  dismembered

  to  give  one's  whole  life

  and  find  nothing's

  remembered

  and  what  good  is  a  life

  that  leaves  nothing  behind

  not  a  thought  or  a  dream

  that  might  echo  in  time

  the  years  and  the  hours

  the  seconds  and  minutes

  and  everything  that

  my  life  has  placed  in  it

  betrayed

  betrayed

  betrayed

  the  things  i  have  done

  the  places  i've  been

  the  cost  of  my  dreams

  the  weight  of  my  sins

  and  everything  that

  i've  gathered  in  life

  could  it  be  lost

  could  it  be  lost  in  this

  could  it  be  lost  in  this

  night