Is this my existence now?

I’ve become jaded, I hesitated…every time I should have jumped right in

Its not too late, we’ll begin today



I love my problems, so please don’t solve them

They provide excuses, for being useless



I had a dream that everyone I knew was in my room, 

Staring at pictures of my past life

The one I spent dying to get out of my own head

I never succeeded.



I know not what I want to be, 

but I’m taking notes on my enemies today and every day.

I love my problems, so please don’t solve them

They provide excuses, for being useless



I love my life but still I find a way, 

To fuck this up just when its gets so good

We run around until there is nothing left, 

Just empty shells of our fleeting youth and anyway, 

I’m not the same



I know not what I want to be, 

but I’m taking notes on my enemies today and every day.

I love my problems, so please don’t solve them

They provide excuses, for being useless



If only you could hear me, when I am thinking clearly

It’s so loud, but I’m stuck and I’m repeating my mistakes

But at least I didn’t break down again today like that day, it was so loud

I’m stuck and I’m repeating my mistakes