It begins with a darkglowing ember

something black burningit's way out of me

Searing the flesh

pain is the only thingI feel

scars all I see

Oh no the fire's burningmy insides again

what can I do to silencemy desire tonight

Face consumer reason leavingall the ashes there

you won't catch mefor granting my decision

I can't keep telling myself

what I want to hear

I can't just close my eyes

I know that it's killing me

and it's poisoningthe best of me

but I say

I don't want to believe

So let me tell you boy

tell you boy

about the lies I lead

That is how i choose to

douce the flames in gasoline

Broken teeth replace the blackoutmemories in my head

Wreckage from the blast

it often shakes meto the floor

I know it's overbut I can't go home tonight

And after this I feel asempty as the night before

feel the pain and yetI'm still begging for more

Masochistic nihilistic gurgingwrecked up thoughts

My life's a mess and

I can't find a wayto fix it

I can't keep telling myself

what I want to hear

I can't just close my eyes

I know that it's killing me

and it's poisoningthe best of me

but I say

I don't want to believe

So let me tell you boy

tell you boy

about the lies I lead

Calling calling out

The darkness reaches up my soul

I'm riddled with self doubt

Crawling crawling out

my will to fightwill more than suffice

while others will lay down

It's onlyas dark as you make it

I know that it's killing me

and it's poisoningthe best of me

but I say

I don't want to believe

So let me tell you boy

tell you boy

about the lies I lead