When was it that you lost your youth or traded

It for something more for them to use, so jaded

Why is it that you never said

I love you more than just a friend?

I pray this gridlock never ends

And when we get there just depends



I found out recently that you are leaving

For good I hope I softly tell my ceiling

It's better now to be alive

Sleeping is my 9 to 5

I'm having nightmares all the time

Of running out of words that rhyme



Everything that you could never say

Would never matter anyway

I took a hammer and two nails to my eardrums long ago

Before that steak knife took my eyes

I looked up to the sky

For the last thing I would ever see

For the last time I'd cry



When was it that you sold your life or wasted

Every bite of that small slice you never tasted?

I guess I should be one to talk

There's nights that I can't even walk

There's days I couldn't give a fuck

And in between is where I'm stuck



From blocks away I heard somebody screaming

That small child inside of you that you left bleeding

You stabbed him up not once but twice

Cubicles will now suffice

Some say it's the roll of the dice

I think they're wrong, I know I'm right



Every breath that I could barely breathe

Could barely make it past my teeth

I took a blowtorch to both of my lungs a long, long time ago

And every step that I could take

Is one more difficult to make

Mr. Chainsaw came and took my legs a long, long time ago



In case you're wondering, I'm singing about growing up, about giving in

In case you're wondering, I'm singing about growing up, about giving in 

In case you're wondering, we're singing about growing up

About growing up and giving in