Hold me now I need to feel relief

 Like I never wanted anything

 I suppose I'll let this go and find a reason I'll hold on to

 I'm so ashamed of defeat

 And I'm out of reason to believe in me

 I'm out of trying to get by



 I'm so afraid of the gift you give me

 I don't belong here and I'm not well

 I'm so ashamed of the lie I'm living

 right on the wrong side of it all



 I can't face myself when I wake up

 And look inside a mirror

 I'm so ashamed of that thing

 I suppose I'll let it go

 till I have something more to say for me

 I'm so afraid of defeat

 And I'm out of reason to believe in me

 I'm out of trying to defy



 I'm so afraid of the gift you give me

 I don't belong here and I'm not well

 I'm so ashamed of the lie I'm living

 right on the wrong side of it all



 Hold me now I need to feel complete

 Like I matter to the one I need



 I'm so afraid of the gift you give me

 I don't belong here and I'm not well

 I'm so ashamed of the lie I'm living 



 right on the wrong side of it all



 Now I'm ashamed of this

 I Am So Ashamed Of This

 Now I'm so ashamed of me

 I Am So Ashamed Of Me