An unfortunate journey 

Through a bleak sea of 

loneliness 

I carved through the waves 

of grief 

In a black vastness of self 

doubt 



I have never felt so alone 

So pitiful and wretched 

and low 

I'm tried by a terrible wind 

The misery and the pains 

blow 



Fill my vast sails of ruin 

Steer me toward a bleak end 

A horizon of purples and 

reds 

The still waters of my 

welcome end 



The clouds of grey come 

overhead 

A storm will hunt me down 

And rip the guts out of my 

body 

That I would surely drown 



The unforgiving wind 

searches 

And lashes me like a whip 

The self-pity overwhelms me 

My heart sinks like a ship 



Thrashing out at torment 

and pain 

The maddened sea engulfs 

me 

I let myself be swallowed up 

The magnificent weight 

upon me 



Deeper i go, deeper down 

Didn't think it could get any 

blacker 

The cold bites, the pressure 

builds 

I think i no longer matter 



Can't tell if my eyes are open 

or closed 

The grieving waters swallow 

The pain I'm in through my 

life of sin 

The Devil will doubtless 

follow 



Loneliness is agony 

For those of you who know 

A war of grief and sadness 

rages 

Through mind, body and 

soul 



When lovers die and 

friendships fade 

When kin all lie forgotten 

The gates of agony spew 

forth 

Your memories, stinking 

and rotten 



So deep now i feel so numb 

I'm ravaged by utter loss 

The guilt, the grief, the 

astounding pain 

My body, they all will wash 



I hope I ne'er return to life 

Oh, Christ just let me go 

Let death devour my Simple 

soul 

Lest my misery grow 



I quietly leave. A lonely sight 

Relieved of all my guilt 

To join a wall of deepest 

Hell 

The Devil himself has built.