i really don't know what i'm doing here

 i really think i should've gone to bed tonight but...

 just one drink

 and there're some people to meet you

 i think that you'll like them

 i have to say we do

 and i promise in less than than an hour we will honestly go...

 now why don't i just get you another

 while you just say hello... 

yeah just say hello...

 so i'm clutching it tight

 another glass in my hand

 and my mouth and the smiles

 moving up as i stand up

 too close and too wide

 and the smiles are too bright

 and i breathe in too deep

 and my head's getting light

 but the air is getting heavier and it's closer

 and i'm starting to sway

 and the hands all on my shoulders don't have names

 and they won't go away

 so here i go

 here i go again...

 falling into strangers

 and it's only just eleven

 and i'm staring like a child

 until someone slips me heaven

 and i take it on my knees

 just like a thousand times before

 and i get transfixed

 that fixed

 and i'm just looking at the floor

 just looking at the floor

 yeah i look at the floor...

 and i'm starting to laugh

 like an animal in pain

 and i've got blood on my hands

 and i've got hands in my brain

 and the first short retch

 leaves me gasping for more

 and i stagger over screaming

 on my way to the floor

 and i'm back on my back

 with the lights and the lies in my eyes

 and the colour and the music's too loud

 and my head's all the wrong size

 so here i go

 here i go again...

 yeah i laugh and i jump

 and i sing and i laugh

 and i dance and i laugh

 and i laugh and i laugh

 and i can't seem to think

 where this is

 who i am

 why i'm keeping this going

 keep pouring it out

 keep pouring it down

 keeping it going

 keep pouring it down

 and the way the rain comes down hard...

 that's the way i feel inside...

 i can't take it anymore

 this it i've become

 this is it like i get

 when my life's going numb

 i just keep moving my mouth

 i just keep moving my feet

 i say i'm loving you to death

 like i'm losing my breath

 and all the smiles that i wear

 and all the games that i play

 and all the drinks that i mix

 and i drink until i'm sick

 and all the faces i make

 and all the shapes that i throw

 and alll the people i meet

 and all the words that i know

 makes me sick to the heart

 oh i feel so tired...

 and the way the rain comes down hard...

 that's how i feel inside...