If you're sleeping, are you dreaming?

If you're dreaming are you dreaming of me?

I can't believe you actually picked me.

"Hi Justin! this is your mother it is 2:33 on Monday afternoon. 

I was just calling to see how you were doing. 

You sounded really uptight last night, 

And it made me a little nervous,

and a lil'... and... well... it made me nervous

It sounded like you were nervous, too.

I just wanted to make sure you were really OK

and wanted to see if you were checking in on your medication

You know I love ya, and take care... take care honey, 

I know you're under a lot of pressure. 

See ya. Bye Bye!"



I have to block out thoughts of you

So I don't lose my head

They crawl in like a cockroach

Leaving babies in my bed

Dropping little reels of tape

To remind me that I'm alone

Playing movies in my head

That make a porno feel like home

There's a burning in my pride

A nervous bleeding in my brain

An ounce of peace is all I want for you

Will you never call again?

And will you never say that you love me

Just to put it in my face?

And will you never try to reach me?

It is I that wanted this



Hate me today

Hate me tomorrow

Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you



Hate me in ways

Yeah ways hard to swallow

Hate me so you can finally see what's good for you



I'm sober now for 3 whole months

It's one accomplishment that you helped me with 

The one thing that always tore us apart

Is the one thing that I won't touch again

In my sick way I want to thank you

For holding my head up late at night

While I was busy waging wars on myself

You were trying to stop the fight

You never doubted my warped opinions

On things like suicidal hate

You made me compliment myself

When it was way too hard to take

So I'll drive so fucking far away

That I'll never cross your mind 

And do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind



Hate me today

Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you



Hate me in ways

Yeah ways hard to swallow

Hate me so you can finally see what's good for you



And with a sad heart I say bye to you and wave  

Kicking shadows on the street

For every mistake that I had made 

And like a baby boy I never was a man



Until I saw your blue eyes cry

And I held your face in my hand

And then I fell down yelling "Make it go away!"

Just make a smile

Come back and shine just like it used to be

And then she whispered: "How could you did this to me?"



Hate me today

Hate me tomorrow

Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you



Hate me in ways

Yeah ways hard to swallow

Hate me so you can finally see what's good for you..

For you...