I'm scared of swimming in the sea 

Dark shapes moving under me 

Every fear I swallow makes me small 

Inconsequential things occur 

Alarms are triggered 

Memories stir 



It's not the way it has to be 



I'm afraid of what I do not know 

I hate being undermined 

I'm afraid I can be devil man 

And I'm scared to be divine 

Don't mess with me my fuse is short 

Beneath this skin these fragments caught 



When I allow it to be 

There's no control over me 

I have my fears 

But they do not have me 



Walking through the undergrowth, to the house in the woods 

The deeper I go, the darker it gets 

I peer through the window 

Knock at the door 

And the monster I was 

So afraid of 

Lies curled up on the floor 

Is curled up on the floor just like a baby boy 



I cry until I laugh 



I'm afraid of being mothered 

With my balls shut in the pen 

I'm afraid of loving women 

And I'm scared of loving men 

Flashbacks coming in every night 

Don't tell me everything's alright 



When I allow it to be 

It has no control over me 

I own my fear 

So it doesn't own me 



Walking through the undergrowth, to the house in the woods 

The deeper I go, the darker it gets 

I peer through the window 

Knock at the door 

And the monster I was 

So afraid of 

Lies curled up on the floor 

Is curled up on the floor just like a baby boy 



I cry until I laugh