lupita - fashawn
(*prod. by exile)
when she called i had a knife to my wrist*
feelin like life ain't make sense
see i just quit my job
sick of flippin burgers, and livin in my aunts garage
so i just let it drain
sittin here drownin' in a bottle of jim b
thinkin to myself she was posed' to be my queen
feel like a bad dream
and i just wanna wake up, walked in the house
caught some niggas diggin her out, him and the spouse
remember when we first confessed we loved on another
i was cool with her paps, she was tight with my mother
crazy as it sounds, i think i still love her
enough to take my own life, left me with nothin but a broken heart
suicidal thoughts, a twelwe inch blade, real real sharp
phone still ringin, so i picked up the call
let go of the knife, let it drop to the floor
damn
when i am sleepin (some days i don't even wanna wake up, wake up, wake up)
when i am sleepin, i can not keep the knife
when i am sleepin (some days i don't even wanna wake up, wake up, wake up)
when i am sleepin, i can not keep the knife
when she called he had a knife to his wrist
conseplatin if life made sense
see he just quit his job
sick of flippin burgers, and livin in a garage
so he just let it drain
didn't even check the caller id
thought about his girlfriend cheatin on him
he caught her in a bed with another woman
and another man, couldn't understand
how you could crush a persons heart, in the palm of your hands
now he's depressed, even thinkin suicidal
like how you going from a lover to a rival
bottle of yack, knife on his lap
death on his mind, matter of time before he just snaps
but he answers the phone
it's his mother on the other end, pleatin that he needs to come home
he puts the knife down, at the sound of her voice
hesatating bout makin that choice
wrong or right
that phone call might have saved his life
he said to himself
when i am sleepin (some days i don't even wanna wake up, wake up, wake up)
when i am sleepin, i can not keep the knife
when i am sleepin (some days i don't even wanna wake up, wake up, wake up)
when i am sleepin, i can not keep the knife
she could have been his wife, he could have been her husband
could've had a family, wonder where the love went