They All Blame Me

I was living alone with all my friends
I didn't know my place
One moment they loved, laughed and cared
And another started to hate

I was running to them
begging to stay, didn't they understand
All I wanted was them to see what's real
Try to forgive and forget
And they thought I was mad
But I was just sad

I knew they had won and wished me away
I was left behind
I had to look up and find them again
All I found was my lies

They deserted my life
Hit me hard, turned cold as ice
I thought I knew who they were
Now they'd dropped their disguise

And they thought I was mad
Still sad
I just wanted to cry
They wanted me to die

Hundreds of moments that I've forgot
Too many words that I'd not mind
Thousands of dreams didn't come true
Losing someone and they all blame me

I renewed myself still scars were sore
But I learned to live again
Baby steps I'd walk a mile
And didn't turn my head
I don't know why I called them friends
Cause they didn't forgive and forget
A new life and a new sunrise
Lonely but free

So I was mad
No more sad
Wanted to cry
Wanted me to die