If ever you had said to me before that I would live this life
That I am living now I guess it's all so strange
To feel the way I do inside
But have so much that I could feel some pride for in my life
So why is it that I feel like this
Refrain:
How do I feel? I've been here before, I've felt this
Retreat to a place, a place within me, I need this
Keep it all down, bottled inside, it breaks me
To torment again and torture me like it used to
I try and try to break away from all the hate I'm feeling
For every one of you that's ever done me wrong
I need to justify the reasons for the way I'm living
I guess I can't cause I don't feel like I deserve
Refrain
So now the waves they have subsided and my soul is bleeding
I can't take away all the shame I feel forgive me